A Sleepless Mind.

It's 2:15a.m. and, as usual, I'm sitting here awake. Listening to music, writing, thinking....Always thinking. Tomorrow...well, today I guess...our marching band will be traveling to Florida to perform in the night lights parade at Disney. Left on my to-do list are numerous tasks: I need to pack by 4 a.m., finish two APUSH assignments, read chapter 15 in the APUSH textbook, read the final portion of a chapter in my AP Psychology textbook, email Jack the analysis questions for pre-calculus, study for the H. Chem test tomorrow. Sleep is not included. At this point sleep is not an option. Much like earlier today lunch was not an option, nor breakfast. There simply are not enough hours in a single day.
           I've never been one to actually look tired, but I'm beginning to look exhausted. Everything is finally wearing on me physically. Normally it just manifests as weakness in certain muscles, multiple headaches, or shortness of breath. Lately though other things are being thrown into the mix: difficultly focusing, lack of motivation, a decrease in grades, lack of appetite, and even difficulty sleeping (which sounds strange, I know). I've always felt drained, but I've never looked this tired. I'd be alarmed if it wasn't expected.
          This is going to be extremely random, but I'm going to add some lyrics to two songs I've come to love of late. For the sole purpose of expressing what I can't put into words.

"And so the sky becomes a dream
I never dreamt because I'm just too busy
Waiting for nothing and wasting away
And so the sky it watched my dreams
Fall to pieces right in front of me
Cause I'm just too busy
Waiting for nothing and wasting away

And I'd never wish for anything more
Than to find what I've been looking for
And I swore to myself I wouldn't lie to myself
How could I let this happen?"

"Whatever happened to our inner glow
Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know
Whatever happened to my radio
Whatever happened to my song
It is my song"