Just Too Long...

I don't know how much longer I can do this....I don't see the point anymore. There is no purpose. My dreams are too far and the beginnings of them that I previously had in my hands are crumbling quickly. To quickly for me to figure out how to save them. I don't know where I'm going. I don't know why I'm here. What is the point of fighting so hard, of trying so hard, when everything I ever do will never be enough. It will always be a failure. I will always be a failure. And I don't think that I can accept that and live the rest of my life with it. No....life was never really meant to be easy, but it wasn't supposed to be this hard either. I don't know how much longer I can do this....I don't want to anymore. I'm walking and laughing and struggling and breathing only for those around me. My parents. My friends. My family. There really aren't many of them if I think about it. The lack of people in my life, people that are actually close to me, is quite...sad if I ponder on it. Lonely. It's a hard state to constantly be in. Anyways, I can't fight much longer....and I don't think that I want to....I can't.